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After Demian inexplicably saves Sinclair from Kromer, the two part ways. Kromer does not bug him again, and Sinclair returns to the safety of his good "light" world. He does not thank Demian, and rather tries to forget the whole situation. He immerses himself completely in the world of Light. Meaning he does not associate himself with Kromer, and though Demian was good to him he is still a link to the "Dark" world which he is trying to free himself of.
Years later Sinclair begins his confirmation classes, though Demian is older he ends up being in the same class with Sinclair. At first they don't talk much until one day the teacher brings up the story of Cain and Able. When Demian and Sinclair first met Demian had shown Sinclair a new light on the story, glorifying Cain over Able. After a meaningful glance Sinclair begins to notice Demian again with the same curious respectful obsession. At first Demian is moved to sit right in front of him, then later he sits back right beside Sinclair. They begin to sort of communicate in the class, though its not disruptive or rude. Demian will draw Sinclair's attention to some interesting story in the class, then later explaining a new view which Sinclair had never seen before. Demian also begins to point a student out before class, then during the class he will make a gesture and the person will scratch his head, cough, or something like that. By this time Sinclair is completely enthralled with Demian. He describes him as young and old at the same time. Not so much as years, but something about Demian seems timeless and wise. Like he has been around forever, yet he seems young and curious at the same time. Demian would study the other students closely and could seemingly persuade them to do what he wanted. Sinclair notices that Demian also seems to have this power on him. Eventually Demian explains that it is not "thought reading" or anything magical as Sinclair suspects but a matter of will. He explains that if one imagines something with all his being, something attainable and necessary to its life, then he will achieve it. Also that if you study a person close enough and you will know more about him than he does himself.
Sinclair begins to get a completely new mind set, cracks appear in his religious faith mostly influenced by Demian. Once again Demian sheds new light on one of Sinclairs most personally influential bible stories, Golgotha, or the story of the Crucifixion. This discussion brings them to the beginning of an idea that is brought up repeatedly thereafter. Sinclair gets the idea that in order to be religious then everything should be sacred not just a half that is supposed to belong to god and cleanliness, but that if everything were sacred this would also include evil and the devil. So you should have a service for god and also a service for the devil, or a god that includes the devil also. This idea goes straight to Sinclair because in a way it clears up his ideas of the Dark world and the Light world and how they conflict. Their talk turns to this and they begin to dive deeper within this problem. One day in class Sinclair gets the idea he is seeing the real Demian. After an argument Demian sits through the class completely still. His eyes seem unfocused and the first thing that he thinks is Dead. Sinclair described him as a primeval, animal, marble, beautiful, cold, dead yet secretly filled with fabulous life.
After confirmation it is decided that Sinclair will be sent to boarding school, he leaves without having the chance to really say goodbye to Demian. He goes off to school and is filled with a sense of loneliness. He cannot relate with the others and becomes more and more secluded. One day while walking by himself he meets up with an older boy from school named Alfons Beck. He finds himself sharing stories and talking with him a lot. They go to a pub and begin to drink. This starts a sort of downward spiral for Sinclair. He starts to drink almost constantly. He feels as if his childhood has been officially stomped out. He goes from a "bloody beginner" to a sort of leader of a group of rowdy drinkers. He feels more and more sick with himself, even like his own conscience is weighing him down. The school and his father threaten expulsion, but he does not care. The only things he does not partake in with his drinking "friends" is their sexual excursions. He feels lonely, but does steer clear of this part of the "dark world".
One day while in the park he sees a girl. He becomes sort of infatuated with her. Though they never speak, and he never finds out her real name, he names her Beatrice. He begins painting, trying to capture Beatrices face. Beatrice brings him out of his dark realm and hurtling back towards the light. He says it was the "cult of Beatrice" that changed his life. Before a cynic, now trying to become a saint. He paints and paints the face of this girl and eventually it just becomes a face not so much the girl. Finally ends up with an image. He finds the image as a kind of God. Neither man nor woman, ageless, purposeful, and secretly alive. After it begins to sort of haunt him in his dreams as well he realizes that the face belongs to Demian. After further criticism he realises that the face is also himself. Not as in a direct portrait, but a sort of daemon. Soon after while visiting home he meets Demian. The meeting was brief, and put out Sinclairs feelings even more. Demian sort of assumes he is a drunk and doesn't take well with that.
Things sort of go back to normal. But Sinclair begins to dream about the old coat of arms painted over his doorway at home (which Demian had taken a special interest in). He paints this bird in his dream sort of hatching from the world. Then he sends it to Demians old address not really knowing how to get it to him. Then a while later he finds a note in one of his class books that is obviously from Demian. It says "The bird fights its way out of the egg. The egg is the world. Who would be born must first destroy a world. the bird flies to God. That God's name is Abraxas." Then that day in class the teacher talks about this God named Abraxas. Saying that he is the godhead whose task is the uniting of godly and devilish elements. This sort of haunts him, but really starts to help him reason with how he feels about good and evil. He later dreams that he goes back to his home and the coat of arms overhead is glowing. At first what looks like his mother approaches him, but then it sort of resembles Max Demian in the painting, but more feminine. The figure embraces him and it gives him a sort of ecstasy or mortal fear, and he wakes with a racked conscience. He gets a sort of sexual drive and obsession to find his "beloved". While fighting through inner turmoil he begins to make friend with an organist, who he goes to listen to at a church. The first time they actually talk Sinclair brings up Abraxas. The man is taken aback at first but says he knows of Abraxas and will tell Sinclair. At their first meeting however all they do is stare into a fire and sort of meditate for an hour or so. The organist, Pistorious, becomes a sort of teacher to Sinclair.